Children

I often times wonder....if they would ever miss me should a truck hit me some day? Will they really miss me or will they just miss my helping them, or my cupcakes I make or wish they had gotten that potato salad recipe from me that my Mom taught me how to make?

I'd love to be a fly on the wall...see how they react...???

I'm sure one will truly miss me...out of 5 daughters...but you never know. I'd like to think the grandkids would miss me...but you never know.

I wonder if, perhaps, as many parents...maybe I try to fix things for them a little too quickly. Perhaps next time there is a problem or an issue, maybe I should tell them that I am sure THEY will work it all out and that I have to go because I have a golf date! I bet some parents talk like this, why can't I? Because I am that idiot that stops what I am doing and immediately tries my best to help them. As most Mom's know, the thank you's are not showing up like they should. Is it because they are busy than I am and have no time to thank anyone for anything. Or is it just that I have done what was expected as a mother, so then, no thank you is really required in their minds.

I just don't know but I do know that I don't feel appreciated nearly enough. Maybe, it's because I was born in June under the sign of Cancer and maybe I am just too sensitive about everything. I don't know. I feel like I try to do the best I can for my daughters, but somehow, I always walk away feeling I failed them. They don't say that, of course, I just feel it inside of me. Oh, well, maybe I should give them a survey to fill out on my performance. Give me a 10 if the meal you just consumed in record speed was to your liking. Or give me a 10 if I babysat long enough for you today. How about a 10 if I researched something for you on Google today because you thought you were too busy to do it, and my time has no value. Perhaps a 10 if I loaned you my car, or allowed you to move back in with me, or loaned you money, or picked you up at the mall or at a friend's house, or drove you to school each day, or brought home your favorite foods from the grocery store?

Just maybe, my mother surveys would come back okay? One never really knows!